My mind draws in the memory of kayaking with Slanz and Bella one evening at Herrington Manor Stare Park. I wish there were a way to pick certain moments in time and press play to watch the replay and analyze its data. I cling to these spreadsheets of life. The three of us were utterly overjoyed to have that experience together. I struggle to take a breath through salty drops of perfect memories. At least our past holidays and happy times are safe somewhere in the ripple of time. There they cannot be shot by a heartless ghoul coward that avoids responsibility for destroying any chance of future magic moments for us with Slanz.
To make some sort of sense of things, zi would like to hope that this event propelled the guilty person to clean up their act, get sober, or volunteer for some community service. Maybe soon they will be grateful enough that Slanz was the catalyst for their new lease on life or perhaps renewed sobriety. All I ask is that everyone focus deep thought and prayer on this person's conscience until they break. Unburden your soul.
The truth is out there Alan. It's not only out there, it's right smack dab right fucking there, Glaring at us all in the face. Theories without evidence are useless.
Any normal decent human being would want to admit what they have done and offer humble penance. I mean honestly.... for Fuck's sake the rule of law in our country is so overrun with vile filthy murderers that the punishment is hardly any deterrent. What would you even get sentence wise for ripping this invaluable human from existence? I can only imagine it is not long enough. What I do know is.......The longer it takes to spill your truth, the harder it will be to be forgiven. Without justice this person remains in danger themselves because ArchAngel Michael has your name on his list. Michael is God's warrior and God loves Slanz. He will not let this shadowy murderer remain cloaked by invisibility. God's eyes are set upon you and so soon will be his hands. Your only option is surrender. Shame on you. What the fuck is wrong with you?, you disgusting piece of shit. This was not a one off. There is typically an escalation that takes place in a criminal mind such as our suspected shooter. If it starts with childhood entitlements without repercussions so as to learn healthy boundaries, then sprinkle in drugs and here come the sex offenses, which will sadly often lead to grand larceny or even murder.
I believe in the religion of an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth but will settle for a proper sentence. Get right with God. Confess. Repent. Be Forgiven. Give us the peace of knowing why. Resistance is futile. Ticktock.